Shit Happens

Don't read this blog unless you want to be bummed or you're one of my tight people.

That's the way the cookie crumbles and all that. If you read the blog I wrote last night, you know a really close friend of the family was killed. I am taking it pretty hard, but that's not all. Shit is hitting the fan in general. This has happened to me before, and I know I've heard other people talk about bad things happening in groups (3's I think). The last time was when my grandfathers died. They died 2 weeks apart, and 2 weeks after 9/11. It was a blur.

I feel the same way tonight. My mom is taking it pretty hard too, although I'm not sure if it's the loss itself or putting herself in her mom's position. Our families bonded over some similar difficulties in during youth, and my parent's felt a certain kinship with Jessica's mom. My mom yelled at me this morning, even threatened to kick me out. I yelled back, crying a little, and left to go drive and cry. I knew she was just venting on me, but it was still reminiscent of my teenage years and it dashed my hopes a bit.

My sister is going through some harsh shit right now and I can't help her. She wouldn't let me if I could as she told me today she never wanted to talk to me again.

Another friend of hers, who is also my friend, disagrees with me about how to help my sister. It is not going well.

Basically, in the midst of this great tragedy my whole family is in turmoil and it's small consolation that I didn't do anything wrong this time.

I could sure use a cigarette right now.

I know it's a cheap move but I'm gonna solicit some sympathy right here on myspace. If you love me, drop me a line and tell me so, I can sure use it.

Under the heading "circle of life", Melissa's little sister had a baby boy today.
Baby Lincoln at 6pm. CONGRATULATIONS BREE AND BRENDAN!!!!
Also, my mom and I apologized to each other later. I can't remember the last time that has happened.