dream a little dream

so sometimes i have these dreams that are real, honest to goodness, complete movies in my head that i watch start to finish and have fully developed stories. I just woke from one such dream. (note: some details have been embellished because i don't watch the whole movie, some parts i just "know") It's 1976 and my name is Katrina (just wait, the oddity of that fact gets better). It's the year i was born only i'm not myself. I am looking at pictures on a mantle of my family and my youth and I am not happy. I am married to my highschool sweetheart, who owns a furniture store and i have a few children. I also look at pictures of me on some sort of tv show where i am all made up and elated at the attention and i smile. Flash to 1963. It's three years before i turn 21 and three years before i got married. It's 6 years before the summer of love and 6 years before i start having children. I am at the audition for a national version of the show i had been on and i am supposed to sing something. I'm sure i am here because i am supposed to do better at the audition and change my destiny to one of fame and stardom. (djambel, you are there and i have no idea why. i don't usually dream about you, although i did hang out with you last night). 2 people before my audition they say that they are absolutely finished seeing people and everyone else should go home. I am furious. I storm out in a very loud voice and say "I missed school for this" (it is the 60's after all and i assume that was a bigger deal). As i am leaving i am aware that because of the hurricane a week before they were unable to hold auditions as long as intended and are in a crunch (the hurricane was katrina that we just had last week. i told you it was bizarre). Flash forward to a little while later: not much. I am having dinner with my parents. My father is grilling me about what i will do with my life. I am aware that i am a smart young lady with unusual potential, even for the 60's. I am also ware that the real me, me writing this now has messed up what was a decent chance at going to medical school. I tell him i think i might like to try to go to medical school. He says it the same time as i do and is silent for a minute. He says he thinks thats a great idea. The me in this story had this conversation with her father the first time around but she ends up married shortly after graduation and becomes a housewife (i'm not knocking homemaking, people). Flash forward to several years later, right before college graduation and i am in my parents kitchen having a conversation with my future husband (played by Jerry O'connel. I told you it was a fucking movie. Don't laugh, in another dream i was a man and my girlfriend was Wynona Ryder. I shit u not!) "Don't get so upset!, shouldn't you go to bed, tomorrow is your Med school interview". I am unmoved by this statement. I am aware that in the course of the last few years i have told him all about my time jump and can prove that it's real by things that i know about him. He apparently is telling me that he is not going to stay around and marry me but is in fact going to canada to avoid the draft. I tell him he doesn't get drafted anyway, he gets a college deferrment and then opens the store. "so you're telling me that because i told you what you're going to do, you're not going to do it? that's not really fair to me." i say. "it's just something i have to do Katrina. (this is the first time i am aware my name is katrina) You got to change your life, i need to change mine." My mother comes in the room and tells me to go to bed (apparently a 21 year old still gets bossed around by her parents in the 60's). She then goes and tells my sister (my real sister) to go to bed who is watching tv. She also tells Jerry to leave alone his "cousin" which is me. That part is a little weird, i know. Flash forward a few more years, probably '71 and i am a doctor, wearing a white jacket and roaming the hospital. Jerry O'connell shows up at the end of the hallway wearing his army dress uniform and carrying a suitcase. He drops the suitcase and we hug. I assume we live happily ever after. If anyone knows what this means i would appreciate an explanation. meanwhile i'll be picking it apart in my head.