Crisis averted

I think I got it figured out. Bear with me, this one is gonna take the scenic route.

So there was this show I used to love called Dharma & Greg. The main character Greg was an uptight OCD attorney, and Dharma was a mellow, free spirited yoga teacher. At one point, Greg decides he doesn't like the fast track he is on and quits the rat race to 'follow his bliss'. Fast forward a few weeks and he is arguing with Dharma about everything. He eventually winds up growing a beard and sitting in a park feeding the birds. Finally, he winds up giving legal advice to the homeless and less fortunate types he meets there. The moral of the story? He discovers that being a lawyer is not just what he does, but what he IS.

I think my main crisis lately has been more a deep seeded fear that I'm not good enough to be a physicist, and not that I'm not sure if I want to.

So for the last week or so I have been going crazy with school stress. Actually its been more like math & physics stress. I have equations swimming in my head day and night, and eventually I get delirious with brain fry. I finished the midterm that was not helping my frying, and had calmed down a bit. I've been working pretty hard this week and my work day has been ending pretty late. Tonight I stopped working at 11. My roommate is taking a math class, and sometimes he asks me for help or just likes to talk about it, and tonight he was doing just that. I tried to follow what he was saying and when I couldn't it started giving me anxiety. I decided then and there I was going to have to impose a personal stop time when I put all numbers and such away completely and don't use that part of my brain for the rest of the night. 20 minutes later, without even realizing it, I was answering other peoples math and physics questions on a homework help website.

Soy como soy.