oh yeah

late night, bloody mary. Conversations about food and metal. restless at 10 am, worked out in my favor. Oh yeah.

oh dear god

i dont' remember how i got home last night. i don't remember where i hung out after the bar closed. I slept all day because i was still drunk from last night. i really need to lay off the sauce.

the moment i'd give anything to relive

t's not like you would think. i know this question is asked in many fables and jokes and my answer is quite unique. i think i was in third grade at youngson grade school here in portland. the local hs band was performing(cleveland,i think), and the cafeteria was so crowded that i got to sit on the wall all introspective-like. they played "she blinded me with science". at age 7 it gave me chills. it set music on fire for me. i sware to god on all that i love i'd give anything to have that afternoon back

Nugget

so from time to time i like to bring to light the little nuggets of visual arts perfection which definitely do not abound in our pop culture world. One i have spoken about before, but i will refresh your memory. "Body Double" -a lameass eighties movie, only notable because a young melanie griffith plays a porn star (Holly Body-hence the cheesy name), and for one other interesting tidbit , which i consider a "nugget". The main character is an actor in LA who gets tangled up in a murder and decides to play detective. To this end, he agrees to perform in a porn (apparently anyone can get in) to get close to Holly Body. As filming begins he enters a building decorated in a Rave like fashion and is led around to Relax playing loudly in the soundtrack. As he gets to the rather large room where he will perform (for a rather large audience) they pan around and show FUCKING FRANKIE GOES TO HOLLYWOOD actually playing the song music video style for the movie. I sware to god it made the whole fucking movie worth it. "Cold Hearted Snake"-yes i am talking about the Paula Abdul video. While we all know her musical talents are laughable, the video also features her doing what she is actually trained for- dancing. Her and a small cast perform a verbatim rendition of a number called "take off with me" which is actually from the musical "all that jazz" by tortured and celebrated coreographer Bob Fosse. That particular movie tied with apocolypse now in 1979 for the canne festival grand prize. The coreography itself is quite suggestive in a very cool, non rap video way, and the modern costumes and almost not lame song make it a very fucking cool video that still gives me chills. You gotta admit she's a kickass dancer. PS christina aguilera's video "what a girl wants" and "thriller" also featured moves, but not col like this.

um, yeah

maybe it's the pms. maybe it's the booze. last night was a doozy. in addition to calling the boy i like and telling him i want to be his girlfriend, i also almost lost my bike. thank god for my sister. not only do i not remember the events she's telling me, i can't fathom for the life of me what i was thinking. and i got lost somewhere deep in southeast portland. i was just trying to walk home. oh and i have a hickey

the end of the world

So i went out to eat tonight (i like to eat out alot (hehe)). As i was leaving i felt some shit in my tooth, my back molar on top at the gumline, and i proceeded to try and pick it out. I didn't find anything, so i assumed i got it out with my tongue. I walked a little more and i felt it again. So i stuck my damn finger back there and what do i find but A BIG FUCKING HOLE IN MY TOOTH!!! When i got to a mirror i inspected it and there was indeed some sort of crevice, but when i got home i looked at it with a flash light and it is an honest to goodness real live HOLE. I am so devistated. I am already a little cranky cause of some letters of the alphabet and this has about sent me into the pit of a midlife crisis. This is something that happens to tweakers and people who don't bathe. I bathe.

On Strike

I am so fed up with certain situations that are in no way under my control or by my hand but are still plagueing my life to the point of keeping me up at night seething in my anger. For this reason i am on strike. I refused to go to school today, and will not be leaving my room (while in my house, I'm on strike, not a hermit) I will be taking no calls (unless i really like you), performing no chores or favors, and basically doing nothing normally required of me as earning my keep for the wonderous gift of my existence. I just want the universe to remember that it needs me (read "us") as much as i need it. It can't just ask me to be it's errand girl and then shit all over me. It's a temporary, one day strike, not an unlimited thing. I still care. I just want to remind god that i don't have to play along. Playing with god is dangerous business, i'm sure, so let's hope i don't wind up struck down by a bolt of lightening. Here's gamblin!

I drank you

no seriously, you cant be reading this right now, because i drank you. Along with the rest of the world. I am so fucking hung it's ridiculous. This is the worst hangover i have had since my birthday. I was so drunk i had to have my friend do my drunk dialing for me. We drunk dialed the boy i like, which is ok because he thought it was really funny. I guess thats good. When i was with martin i would drunk dial him and break up with him, like, every other weekend. Thankfully i didn't say anything ridiculous. btw food network rules. Just an observation, the blog editor lists all these moods to choose from and one of them is drunk, but there is no hungover. interesting.

My pee smells like jeager

not really but i got your attention. I did drink some jaeger though. I stayed up really late last night and woke up in a strange house. Well it wasn't really strange, it was a friends party. I got really drunk and gave relationship advice into the wee hours. Friday night was better, though (right lynn). I have the worst hangover since my birthday. All in all not a bad weekend: I got to hang out with the boy i like, got my picture taken by chris ho photo, ate some thai food, threw up (twice), and slept in my clothes. I'm glad the weekend is only 2 days long. I really have to cut back on my smoking. God Grease is a good movie. You better shape up, cause i need a man, and my heart is set on you. Oh and i bought a Kirby!!!!

John the baptist's father

was told by his wife that an angel would grant them a baby after years of being barren. He didn't believe it. Because of this he was struck dumb for the duration of her pregnancy and did not speak again till John was born. I think it's important to be cautious when wishing on a star. Dreaming is vital, but you really gotta keep your feet on the ground. That's what i think. What about something you know is going to happen; something which you don't deserve, something which is a gift? What if you are still cautious in your enthusiasm, reserved in your faith? Is that wrong? Is it an insult to the power that be to question their wisdom? I have a problem. I think i'm smarter than everyone. For this reason, i can't seem to believe that the universe can still manage to surprise or outwit me. Does that sin have a name? It's not pride is it? Anyway. I have been struck dumb by god for something i refused to believe. I guess i'll get my voice back when the metaphorical baby is born. On other planes, i am in math 344, which is group theory. It is quite difficult already. I can't explain exactly what it is about because if you are into math you already know and if you're not you wouldn't get it. I am going to have a hard time for a bit because I was never taught how to write proofs. The teacher is real mellow, and he is aware that alot of us have never written proofs before so he is trying to teach us. I am also studying on my own. It's not that i don't understand the concept: you prove a complicated idea by linking it back to a simpler idea through a series of accepted axioms. The thing i'm having trouble with is the base. How far down do you have to prove it? what is considered accepted. As a math major i HAVE to learn it, and i'm sure i will. I'm just kinda scared now. I worked out tonight. I rode my bike to psu and then did a circuit, then rode my bike home. Iwonder if my legs will burn as hard tomorrow as last week. I went to the Italian Joint today. It is a restaurant on hawthorne that i discovered with lynn a while back. They were part of the group of restaurants donating 5% of their sales today to katrina relief. I had a seafood ravioli. So i used to be a lifeguard and swim instructor. i was also on swim team as a youth. i also had an in ground pool growing up. Sufficeit (sp?) to say i was a good swimmer. I have been swimming a couple times recently but not seriously. I did some laps last night and discovered that i have lost my mouth/nose control. It's something i've always done so i took it for granted that everyone could do it; that it was no great skill. What i am speaking of is the coordination and muscle control required to switch from breathing through your nose (which you do while face down) to breathing through your mouth (which you do above the water) while pulling your head up. The reason this is so difficult is you only have a limited time to get a lung full through your mouth and you cant pull your head too far out of the water. your nose, then, is still susceptible to a little h2o inhale unless you can exercise a specific muscle on command. The result is you get water up your nose and not enough oxygen to finish your next set. I was starting to remember how to do it by the end of the workout, but i need a lot more practice. Time to go learn some more about proofs.

I'm so hot for him

i'm so hot for him i'm so hot for him He's so COLD but on the upside MY SISTER IS MOVING OUT!!!! not till february but still. And it's not even on bad terms, she's moving in with her boyfriend. THANK FUCKING GOD. That's all i have to say.